Yoga ftw

I have kind of bad joints. I guess the best description is that some of them are a bit “loose”. I sprain my ankles all the time, one tiny wrong step and wham. My shoulders are even worse, they are bad enough to give me constant pain. I keep doing something with my hips, goodness knows what, that sends pain down to my feet and make me have stop for a while because I can’t even move my legs. That’s over quickly thankfully 🙂

But my back… oh sweet someone… I keep injuring that damn thing and it is not going away easily. And the pain is so bad. Obviously I’m lucky enough not to be able to take any painmedication because it makes me sick.

What I CAN do for my back is strengthening my core, help it protect my spine and help keep those damn disks in place. Now, if you’ve read this far, you have probably figured out already that there’s a “but” coming. Right?

Right. But!

Here’s how bad my back is, and how weak my core is – I can’t even do all of the easiest physical therapy there is without horrible pain to my lower back!

Yeah…

I used to do deadlifts pretty often, and with a high weight that was a damn fine workout for my abs too, but I need more physical therapy for my shoulders before I can do that again.

So… what else was there? I didn’t know. I found out by chance – yoga!

Yoga once/week turned out to be great for my core! The yoga teacher that’s working at my gym as the perfect kind of yoga for me and my body (though, I DID manage to sprain my ankle at class once…). After some time I noticed how my posture had gotten better. And that I was able to do ALL of the physical therapy I needed. That’s pretty great!

I haven’t been able to go to ypga since last year due to health reasons, and it has taken all the progress away from me. My back and core is back on zero. I need to start over. And I will! As soon as I can move without wanting to kill someone out of pain… It shouldn’t be too mich longer now. All I can do for my pain right now is going for walks.

I’m doing as much yoga as I can at home. It’s not much since I can’t really move my legs like I need to, but it’s better than nothing. I focus on the “can”, not the “can’t”. Well, unless you count this post…. there’s a lot of “can’t” in here 😛 But that’s just to give you an idea of what’s going on 🙂

(And a chance for me to whine a bit, before I can go back to my “can” 🙂 )

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After sickness there’s health?

Sadly, I only mean that after fever, there is no fever 🙂

I’ve been home with a fever since tuesday and I’m finally doing better and can go back to work tomorrow. The problem with a fever when you have PoTS – is you have PoTS. The two doesn’t really go well together.

While being home and keeping the sofa company, I’ve eaten whatever I wanted to. I let go of the strict diet I need to stick to and just had what ever I felt like. My body is NOT happy with me now…
Tomorrow, or rather now, it’s back to normal again! I have my notebook next to me and I think the week that’s coming will go great… NOT! Why? Here’s why:

For the next few months, probably for the rest of the year, it will be hell. I’m not even joking! I mean HEEEELL!!
When you have PoTS, there are certain things you can do to help yourself. What these hings are depend on you and how bad your PoTS is!
Now, I work 50% – 4 hours/day and 5 days/week. And you know what – it’s hard! It’s really, really hard! I have to plan EVERYTHING. Every hour of every day!
I’m not saying it isn’t worth it, it is, very much so! But it’s exhausting. However, this is what I have to do to help my body, and to help my PoTS, and to be able to work those 4 hours a day!

So I plan my days. I go to bed at a certain time, even if I’m free the next day. I only eat certain things and avoid lots of food (that I love) and I only eat at specific times. I do some form of cardio every day and my strength training is currently taken care of at physical therapy. When that is over, I need to keep going at my regular gym.
I also need to plan my free time. What days can I meet other people to do something? When can I go shoping? How many hours do I have each day to do something? Etc.

When I plan everything, I know that I’m giving my body the best chances to cope. And belive me, it needs to cope with a lot of crap…
This way of living is still new to me. And it will take some time fo me to start feeling ok with it. Some people have said it took about 3 months of pure hell before their PoTS started to accept the changes. And well, I’m in hell. So I’m hoping it will take about 3 months for me too 🙂

Going… going… almost gone!

I’m doing everything I’m supposed to do now. Eating right, going to the gym (btw, KMN!) and I’m very strict when it comes to not only eating healthy, but eating what my PoTS is ok with!
I am in fr a rough few months now… But it’s ok, I have to do it.

I don’t think I’ve ever even seen as much sweat as left my body today… And thank goodness my bloodpressure only “warned” me and I didn’t pass out, because there were a few close calls. I felt them coming and got down on my knees (during yoga), had some water and when I could, I got back up and continued.

Today I figured that the cardio I need to do should be done before yoga. And I managed it! I did exactly what I planned to do!! My body was a mess afterwards, but I had about 30 minutes to rest Before yoga.

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For obvious reasons, this is the only photo you’ll get from the lockerroom 🙂

Here’s the food I’ve been eating a lot of lately:

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Pasta is mostly for later in the day or days when I know I’m staying in as my PoTS isn’t as fond od it as I am 🙂

A gym at the doctors?

Yes, that’s a thing 🙂

This is the “Win” gym (it’s called Win):

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I will do physical therapy for my shoulder and neck 2 times/week and perhaps medicinal yoga once/week. It might too much too close to eachother, but we decided that I hould try next week and see how it goes!

I’m doing a little bit better today. I still get out of breath very quickly, but I can still do some things as long as I take it slow. I have problems eating, but managed half a sandwiche 🙂 I get so out of breath from eating that it’s almost impossible to get anything down.. But I’m getting better at remembering my water! That’s important! I’m keepin and eye on the scale so I don’t lose too much weight too fast, I don’t want any ore problems 🙂

There are a lot of things going on at work this week. Wednesday – Friday are busy, busy, BUSY!!! Thankfully, I have a “special” employment that basically says that if I need to rest or things get too much for me, then I rest! I won’t be a part of the heavy lifting or running around between offices or anything like that, that’s for the healthy ones 😛 But I will aid where I can 🙂

Oh, and look at the cool golden selfie I took! Get it? Get it? GOLDEN selfie? Oh I’m such a geek…. 🙂 🙂

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Jeas Fit Challenge, part 3

To get healthier when your body isn’t well is not easy. That’s just the way it is. I know that I’m up for pure hell. I’m not kidding, that’s how it will be, that’ how it always is when I need to start something… I’m 33 and my body STILL HASN’T adjusted itself to working!! I work 50% (4 hours/day) and that’s what I can manage. I’ve tried more but, oh honey… that wasn’t pretty at all…

Somehow, I need to make myself go to the gym more. Every damn day. I won’t be lifting weights everyday. No, it’s as follows:
MondayZumba (as much as my body can manage, medication up by the leader just in case).
TuesdayBodybalance. A bit nicer to my body. Bloodpressure will drop, but that’s ok, I haven’t fully passed out yet. Is it odd that I’m super happy that I’ve only lost my eyesight and hearing during class? Well, that’s what it’s like being me 🙂
Wednesday – rest.
ThursdayCardio, right after work. (The gym is in the same building as I work.)
Friday –  Cardio, right after work.
SaturdayCardio in the morning after my bloodressure has had a chance to settle and stay at what’s normal for me.
SundayCardio in the morning after my bloodressure has had a chance to settle and stay at what’s normal for me.

I will do Yoga at home to help relax my body and wind down. Once it’s back at the gym (none for the summer), I will go back to class there 🙂

The hardest thing will be to force my body to do it. I will be so tired and exhausted and feel like crap. I’m hoping that since I do most straight after work I will be able to have some sort of an “ok” spare time after that. If not… well, what can I do? My health is the most important thing.
A lot of people with POTS say that they do their cardio every day and it’s always the same hell, but that hell will soon feel normal. Just as the hell we always live is normal to us. It jsut sucks never being able to do thing with others because you’re too tired or your bloodpressure is too bad oryour pulse is at 15 and you need o wait and see if you need to go to the doctor or not. Or having an ok puls and then have it go from 55 to 200 every damn time you try to stand up. (I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone between rooms at home on all 4 because I don’t want to pas out and hurt myself.)

So:
– LOTS of water.
– Salt.
– No carbs before gym.
– No large meals in the hours before gym.
– No warm meals at all before gym.
– No warm clothes (as always, dress to be a bit cold…).
– Sleep for about 10 – 15 hours/night.
– Eat no more food than the size of my fist at a time.
– Don’t stretch before working out!!!
– Not laughing too much.
– Listen to even the smallest signal from my body.
– Be careful.
– Don’t move to fast during the day.
– A minimum of 15 minutes of warm up before I do anything.
– No, no, no, ABSOLUTELY NOOOOO STRESS at all!!!!

I’m not even kidding with that list. All of it is so important if I’m going to be able to make it! Even the part about laughing, if I laugh too hard/too much my bloodpressure will drop! I have passed out because of this and IT FREAKED ME OUT!!!! Now I know how crap like that works so… But still…
The above list will probably have things added as I go. I can’t remember everything right now, I’m too tired. (I’m sitting next to the window and I just realized the sun came out and that’s why I’m suddenly getting so tired and exhausted. Yeah, that’s my life. My heartrate is increasing more and more and I need to get more water now!)

I’m gonna write more about my little challenge as I go. I won’t write much about my health, but I wanted to make it clear to people so I can just refer to these 3 posts when there are questions. I don’t want the focus to be on that, I want the focus to be on my progress, my goals, my challenge!
Ever now and then I will write a post about how it’s going in concern to my POTS and the rest, but that’s probably about it.
Should you have any questions, just ask!

On instagram, I will use #jeaswellness & #jeasfitchallenge if you wanna have a look there too. You can find me under @jeas_wellness 🙂

Jeas Fit Challenge, part 2

Ok, so my plan is to get a fitter and better body than I have now. Since I have afew things standing in my way from that, I need to really, really Think about HOW to do that. And that’s why I didn’t go to bed until 1am last night. Some Saturday night, huh 🙂

What exacly does stand in my way? I have:
– POTS – Postural Ortorstatic Tachycardia Syndrome (unable to take medication for it).
– Siunstachycardia (medication for it).
– Syncope (no medication).

Why is that rubbish?
– My puls can suddenly race.
– My pulse also doesn’t always rise as it should when I try to work out.
– I’m constantly tired.
– I need to drink lots of water.
– I need extra salt in my diet.
– I fall asleep if I eat the wrong food/heavy food/lots of food.
– My bloodpressure is crap in the morning and I pass out easily.
– I can’t tolerate heat as well as healthy people.
– When I get too warm I pass out.
– If the airpressure is bad I can pass out.
– When i work out/take fast walks I get warm and that will make my bloodpressure drop and I pass out, exersice intolerans, get it now? Not as strange as it sounds 🙂
– I need extra/lots of breaks at work.
– I ned extra/lots of breaks when out Walking.
– I need extra/lots of breaks when working out.
– I need to drink cold water no matter what I’m doing.

That list can o on forever, but you get the idea. It sucks.
I’ve started lots of different workoutroutines, but I haven’t been able to keep it up. The reason for that is that if you don’t have enough motivation to handle having every single symptom you can possibly have from your sickness/syndrome, there’s no way you’re gonna keep it up!! That’s just the way it is.
I’ve gone for walks. That’s it. And the only reason I didn’t have motivation is because I didn’t have anything waiting at the light in the end of the tunnel. Nothing motivating me. A bad gym (with no air…). But now I do. No I have exactly what I need waiting for me!

My goals, divided in to 4 Groups.
Mental goals:
– Feel good about myself.
– Have a genuine smile on my face.
-Be happy!
Activity goals:
– Be able to ride a bike for 30 minutes.
– Do handstands at Yoga.
– Do cardio every day (and I need that to help me with my POTS they say, yikes).
– Use the rowingmachine at the gym for more than 2 minutes.
Food goals:
– Eat well (already started).
– Veggies (already starte).
– Fruits and berries (already started).
Physical goals:
– Less problems with finding clothes.
– Help with a boobjob.
– Be fit.
– Less problems with my back, my knees and my hips.

Hang on for part 3.

How Yoga & Bodybalance has helped my back

I have a bad back. Seriously, lumbar lordosis I think they called it. My core is really weak. And by ‘really’ I really mean REALLY!!! I need to wor my core, glutes and quads extra much for this problem. Last friday, I realized how much better it’s gotten sine I starte Yoga and Bodybalance in April.

It was Midsummer Eve and the family went to Copenhagen for the day (for old times sake). Ususally after a day of Walking my back lower back is killing me and it is completely impossible for me to keep my back up right. But as I was waiting for the train back to Malmö I noticed that I didn’t feel like my back was about to break in half. Sure, it was really painful, but not at all like it usually is. And what dd I ind? My back was straigth. My lower back wasn’t “falling in” on itself as it does in these situations!!

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In the left photo, I was trying to show you how much my lower back used to bend, but this isn’t even it!! I couldn’t bend it as much as it used to do on it’s own!
In the right photo, I’m just standing relaxed. This felt so amazing to discover!!

I have never been happier about starting Yoga and Bodybalance than right then and there! The pain in my lower back isn’t as bad as it used to be over all, either.

International Day of Yoga

My session today was an insanely relaxing one. It killed my glutes and thighs, but that’s another story 🙂

Turns out my mascara, that really HOLDS, didn’t quite make it. On one eye.

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Turns out a waterfall of sweat is NOT mascaraproofed 😀 But who cares? It’s the end of the day, I have a really nice shower to look forward to and I bet I will sleep like a baby tonight.

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I know I said no photos of me in underwear, but you can’t actually see my panties and that up there is a workout bra, so there! “Bra” is by the way the Swedish word for “good”, for all those who didn’t wonder 🙂

And no, I’m not pregnant, that’s just my litte tummy. It was jealous  (really? is that how it’s spelled?) that the rest of me get all the attention. This is me and I’m not ashamed of me!

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m in desperate need of a shower!

Good Morning Yoga

After a very short night, that felt really long due to vey Little sleep, I finally decided to get u at 5.30 this mrning. What’s the point in just looking at a wall?
I red the news, I looked at some really pretty photos on instagram (I really, really want to go to Edinburgh!!) and then I went to my lovely little yogamat.

There’s this great little morning session, about 10 minutes, to wake up the body that I tried. It felt good, really good. The problem with me and mornings is that my bloodpressure does NOT want to cooperate! It drops a lot, even more so if I moe aup and down – forward bends for example. But I know how my body will react, I know exactly when my bloodpressure will drop and I know just what to do to be able to go on with my day without it affecting me too much. I just have to work around it 🙂

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I’m always so, so, so cold in the mornings whe I get out of bed. Freezing cold even! So Yoga in the bathrobe until I get warm, because why not? It’s great actually 🙂 Then when I get warm I take it of and I’m in my panties (no, sorry, there won’t be a photo of that).

It felt pretty good to start the morning like this. Yoga, washing up, getting dressed, reading a book, and THEN go to wok. All relaxed and with a head filled with god and positive thoughts and feelings. Absolutely brilliant!

Freedom Flow! Yoga With Adriene

That’s what I did today 🙂

Yoga With Adriene was the very first contact I had with Yoga when I started to read up on everything Yoga back in february. I still go to her YouTube channel a lot and I really like her!

Today I was searching YouTube for “outdoors Yoga” and her video “Freedom Flow!” came up. I took a look at it and I was sold ❤ This was just the session my body needed today! And this will be perfect for stressful days at work! I like to hold my pose for a bit longer just like “my” teacher at Nordic Wellness does so I did that here too. The 15 minute video took 30 minutes for me to do and that’s pretty good.

There is now a pretty serious amount of sweat running for dear life!! Aaaand my legs don’t really want to move (this is why you always have water with you!)

After the session I took some photos. 2 poses that were in here and 1 just because I wanted it on camera 🙂 And good thing I did too. I noticed that there are a few things I can improve, like how I hold my feet.

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The bottom one is not rom todays session, I just wanted to see it 🙂

Another good thing about taking these photos is the whole “I can’t wear that top to the gym because everyone will see how big I am!” SCREW THAT!! I’ll wear what ever the H I want and if someone has a problem with it, then so be it; they can kiss my pale behind!

No if you’ll excuse me, I will do my best to try to get in to the shower.. somehow..